one week

so. today hits the one week mark. been in portland for onnnnne whole week. it feels both longer and shorter depending on my mood. right now. i dont really feel level headed.

i did get my acceptance letter today from PSU...so...no more stressing about whether i will be taking classes this spring...now, just to decide what i will take. what classes to take towards what freaking degree. i still have to wait on them to evaluate my cbc credits....but yeah. guess i should decide here pretty quick.

applied at a pet kennel. they groom and take care of cats/dogs....hm. i felt semi-good about it, because i actually got to hand the application to someone who talked to me a bit. i hope she calls early tomorrow. because....also got my first call back since ive been here...applying to every little craigslist job and online application i can. the job is at BESTBUY. AH. WHY CANT I ESCAPE CORPORATE RETAIL? the best buy is also out by the airport...a good 10 miles away....ben says the max goes straight there...so that might be an option....I really dont know what to do. I can half-ass the interview in hopes that I will get another call back sometime this week or put everything i got into it to possibly and probably get some lame job wearing a blue shirt and khakis. part of me wants the security that comes with having a job, but part of me wants to wait to find a job with a company i feel better about supporting. i dont know. I guess I could get this best buy job and continue to look for a more legit job....because i really wouldnt feel bad about leaving a big retail chain again. crazy turn over.

i just made a really good stirfry....but ate too much. i think my stomach has shrunk a bit...because i have had a bad habit of not eating regular meals....just eating when i feel hungry...which hasn't been often. because of job-stress and lack of social contact. i see so many interesting people around. but i feel so awkward and out of place that I cant make myself go say hello.

i have felt really homesick the last couple days too. not really missing my house. but missing the company i have come to expect on a daily basis. hopefully things will get better when i get a job...and get back in school.

my bike! i got around to taking it to a bike shop close to my house. but decided i probably have an inner ear problem along the way. maybe its the bike....not quite used to it yet. im kind of all over the place when i ride...and tip over really easy. balance issues perhaps.

my stomach really hurts and i cant stop thinking about someone.