awkward

denali will always be my safe net.

last night i hung out with some friends that i originally met in spokane...that are now living in portland. i was actually invited to this portland guys bday party ish thing, but i met him through my spokane friends. i love meeting new people. hearing what they have to say and kind of learning their take on life. my only regret is not being able to be myself right off the bat. i guess everyone feels a little reserved from time to time. but i feel downright awkward MOST of the time around new people. worst part...i constantly beat myself up on the inside the whole night for not acting 'normal'. these are the times when i wish i was more like curtis....or some other really outgoing people i know and admire. i guess its just a learning thing. learning to accept that maybe thats how it will always be. until i warm up to people. they get the quiet awkward ashley girl.

my mom came into vancouver last night with a few things that i forgot from home. including a printer. which im pumped for. no more driving in circles looking for the kinkos closest to my house to print off resumes. i will be looking for a different job in the next few days. my goal is to possibly get an interview anywhere else before wednesday...before best buy will supposedly call me.

i dont know why this whole bestbuy/target thing is stressing me out. i should be content getting any job. maybe feel lucky that i dont have to wash dishes at some grimy steakhouse. it could be way worse im sure.