"This is hard As the Readings Going to Get"

stop pulling my hairs from between your teeth. it's hurting my feelers [feelings].

my mind is riddled with some form of ADD. i swear. even when i am in the most intense situations, i find that my mind is wandering to less important thoughts. ideas. i guess they have some sort of importance, for my mind is deciding to think about them instead of the matter at hand. but my mind also realizes that the present is far more crucial for future endeavors. school for example. i can sit through my whole ethics class. somewhat interested. but also itching to leave the whole time. itching for when the clock says 6:30. this distracts me. of course, i have no plans tonight. probably just ride home and relax. what exactly am i anxious to do? no idea. anxious to not be in class i guess. even though i know that whatever it is that the professor is babbling on about is way more important. for my future as a college graduate anyway.

i keep thinking about the rain. and how clean it makes everything feel. the air smells so good. the rain will bring flowers. i need the flowers right now. i need the rain to somehow leech into my skin and germinate whatever flowers have embedded themselves within my epidermis. please.

i really want coffee. i've gone five days without. i was reading an article concerning addictions and whatnot. it was mostly talking about food and dieting. and how if you eliminate something from your life. your brain desires it even more. so. moderation is key. strict moderation. so. im making myself a deal. i will be anti-coffee all week. and after work on satuuurday. i will treat myself to a small latte. hmhmhmhmhmhm. yeah. sounds good. once a week latte doesn't sound too hard. right. yes.