part2

the nursing home made a few calls. she had been unwilling to get out of bed that morning. she was just too tired. and who to arrive at her side but [my own grandmother]. even though it was just a short drive for any of her immediate family. they probably knew what was coming and didn't want to take any time out of their busy schedules. she felt cold. even with a good friend by her side. talking a sweet simple conversation, she begins to feel her eyes close. this is the end.

my great aunt mable died about a month ago in her nursing home room. my grandmother was at her side. they said after she closed her eyes and right before she passed, her mouth was moving without sound. the nurses say that, this actually happens to a lot of patients right before they slip away. they said that they believe its either them greeting friends in heaven or them saying their last goodbyes to love ones.

my aunt flossy (the younger sister) died sometime in january the first death i have experienced really. since then, mable had been getting worse. i can only imagine. losing your sister. especially considering how close they were. and. and although my last blog on the subject was fairly fictitious as was the beginning of this one, she did wake up one night in the nursing home and couldn't sleep because she was afraid of dying. afraid of being alone and not being able to finish something she was writing about flossy.

i cant say if i believe in a heaven. but i like to believe in one for just the two of them. maybe they passed away and returned to the bodies they had when they were like...25. i guess they were pretty rambunctious back in the day. life of the party and all that fun stuff. maybe they are living it up.

when i have more time. im going to write about my thoughts on death. hm. this was just a note to myself.