damnit

and this is how it starts.

the chemicals start circulating normally. and ashley's mind shuts off to let her hormones wreck havoc upon every thing she currently holds close. the sleepless nights are back. the sad tired eyes have returned. i remind her this is a phase. like before. this too shall pass. this too. ashley. save yourself from yourself.

your voice is lingering in these walls. and the sheets have held onto just enough to keep me thinking i will feel your arm around me as i drift off to sleep. but like the night before. there is a lack of warmth by my side. the walls are echoing but the sound is from my own voice. whispering to myself. telling myself that i am safe. sleep ashley.