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we are drowning in a sea of the most discriminating open minded progressive thinkers of our time. and I hope I am not a hypocrite myself for saying such a thing. i meet the most fascinating and creative people on a daily basis. i love them and I don't even know them. I wish I had some sort of confidence in myself. I would express the utmost affection for who they are and what they have the potential to do for this world. we are a nation of thinkers. dreamers. activists. leaders. followers. we need the loud and we need the reserved. why do we continue to isolate ourselves in a [safe] [sub]culture bubble where everything is happy and serene? we look at those deviating from our definition of what is [right] with disgust and the desire to fix their [problem]. we decide that their brains MUST function in a twisted. abnormal. unhealthy way. and we can either berate them for their dysfunction or somehow [cure] the ailment with alienation and discrimination. you are not invited to our exclusive gatherings. you are not invited to have one progressive thought without the other ones. basically. your process of thinking is far inferior to mine. [even though you are a pretty cool person, try a little harder and be like me. if there were more me[s] in this world, my reality would be a little more comfortable]

i am a tad bit frustrated as of late. again. ok. i am like this MOST of the time. mostly because i am constantly surround by amazing ideas and movements. but unable to do my part for all of them because there isn't enough time during this lifetime. i hate to think that I [do what i can] because i usually get furious with myself for not doing more. i guess where i fall short is when attempting to [educate] those who may be unaware of some [important] ethical thoughts i have found within the last few years of my life.

where do we draw the line between wanting to fix these unethical practices and allowing people to think for themselves and take responsibility for their life choices and actions that follow them. how do we define what is unethical when the idea of ethics in itself is not a solid factual idea. we can only take our ethical beliefs from those religions we follow during our journey through life. [and when i say religion. i am using it in its most general sense. [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Religion]]. but is this just how we are. because faith feels so good. we will completely devote ourselves to our movements. our labels. until these words. these ideas become us. and we become the ideas. we fear the taboo associated with the evolution of the ethical values we may find within ourselves. again. if you deviate from my ideal moral perfectness, we will desert you. we will berate you. how dare you demoralize me by changing your process of thought rationalization and ethical beliefs. also. we group ourselves together and decide that we are the elite. or pretty close to it. is this perpetual branching of progressive thinkers what keeps us from social change? we do not see ourselves in those even a little bit different than us and think these people. so distant from our own reflections. cannot possibly desire the same social change as us. because it is more comfortable to work with those exactly like us, we stay in our smaller cultural circles. that. seem to me. could be preventing the thinkers. dreamers. activists as a whole to bring about change.

mind you. this was written by a very tired. very frustrated. very abstract mind. my brain is often caught running in circles. and i haven't found a way to stop it. i probably wrote what i wanted to say a little backwards and probably left some thoughts out. hm. i would also like to say. i am NOT anti-activists/anti-passionates/anti-progressives. i am very much in love with all of the above. i am just becoming more aware of the little sub-cultures we are ever so eager to mold ourselves into. hopefully we are not doing this to boost our image within these circles. but rather because we are truly passionate about the positive aspects our respective communities.

my brain is off for tonight